April 3, 2020
Things change daily. And thinking about what I’ve written
recently, I know things and feeling may change along with the world faster than
I can process. But here’s today’s thoughts.
To set the scene: I’m in NYC. I’m in a 600 square foot, 1
bedroom apt with my boyfriend. He usually lives in Jackson Heights, Queens. But
his apt is in the epicenter of the epicenter. So thank god we chose to stay at
my place so he could work from home (totally new to him), and not be alone. If
you’ve not seen my place. I don’t have a balcony, or backyard, or great view (I
mostly see the building 40 ft away, but I look down onto my downstairs neighbor’s
back garden/patio). What I do have, is 2 tvs, cable, good wifi, a home phone,
great grocery stores nearby, and quiet.
I know everyone is worried about us being in NYC. We see it
on the news just like everyone else. It looks like the pandemic is causing pandemonium.
And it is, but only if you’re at a hospital. For the rest of us, it’s eerily
quiet. You walk out on the street and there’s no cars, no horns, no people, no
stores open. New York City is now the City That Only Sleeps. Except for 7pm
each night, when we show our appreciation for everyone still working the front
lines. People clap, cheer, bang pots and pans, and tonight there will be
singing too at 7:30 of, “Lean on Me” out of people’s windows and balconies.
From inside my apt, it feels like a prison break. I can hear others, but not
see them. From outside on the street, it’s extraordinary seeing people that
usually avoid looking at each other, being happy to see each other and waving,
wishing each other well. We know what’s happening out there. But inside my tiny
apt, I feel safe and totally calm.
Yesterday was my birthday. I had a very small zoom
conference “party”. It was great! I didn’t have to just have my friends that are
in the town I’m in. I had friends from all over the world and the country get
to “meet” each other for the first time, after hearing about each other for
years. I wouldn’t trade that experience for anything.
Everyone is dealing with this in their own way. I know for
the very active (socially and physically) this is extremely challenging. But my
life hasn’t changed too much. My routine is the same: exercise, cook for fun,
watch too much TV, sit at my computer the rest of the time and hope to get a
little work done. I love catching up with friends in whatever way, and now I
have the time to do it.
So. As of today, April 3, 2020. I’m healthy and doing fine.
I have a good support system in place. My folks are still safe in their
assisted living in NH. And we don’t FEEL the insanity that we know is just a
few blocks away. Stay home. Stay safe. Wash your hands right now. Tell everyone
you love to do the same, and tell them you love them. Because that can spread
fast too.
